Just Truth & Just Be

This morning I've been inspired.  Inspired by two dear Sister Friends who live far, far away but are always close in my heart and thoughts.

J., my Canadian friend, who lives on the other side of the continent, raising her chickens and her children. A fellow MCU student who I had the sweet opportunity to attend a birth or two with and share a "connect."  She blogged about just enjoying the journey instead of stressing and fretting about getting to the finish line.  Sweet words to my heart.  Wise counsel; sorely needed.

Today I will not stress or fret or fuss over The Deadline that looms over me.  Today I will not let my worry about being good enough, or able to DO THIS, rob me of the joy of learning, the joy of being HERE, on this journey.  As I told my dear Sister Friend - today I will drink my warm yummy coffee and enjoy being where I am in this journey.  Today I will read and be amazed at all the beautiful and wonderous things a woman can do while growing, birthing, and nourishing a baby.  Today I will absorb and reflect and be awed.  And that is absolutely perfect for today.

C., delightful hippy chic, my mentor, instructor, wise woman and sage.  She dares me to be bold and post the truth!  Imagine that.  No fluff, no dolling things up.  Just raw, awesome truth.  Whew!  Not easy. Introspective.

Today, this morning, this moment, what is my truth?

Truth is that I need a nap!  I'm sleep deprived because I worry too much.  Getting passed it is not easy. The things going down in my life at the moment;  finances, employment, education, health, etc... It's a heavy load.  Sleep deprivation from replaying over and over in my mind a conversation I took part in yesterday.   Why didn't I defend myself?  Why did I allow someone to lay an UN-truth on me?

Truth is, I'm terribly insecure.  You'd never know this because I fake it well.  Really well. On the outside.
But on the inside, when I'm allowed space and solitude...where our truth really lives...Why do I still gnaw on an old injustice? Why do I care what someone else thinks of me when they don't know my truth?

Two inspirations.  Today... I will not look at past hurts or injustices.  Today, I will not look ahead at the quickly approaching, glaring DEADLINE.  Today I will JUST BE and today I will practice JUST TRUTH.